Oct. 31, 2010 (Bidadi)
Nithyanandam everyone. Oopps another long break from sharing on the blog. Sorry!
I guess as IA date is getting closer, my mind is fully thinking of IA, most of the time.
Swami is really busy with eN-Kalpatarus. Divine really knows how to; reach seekers. I've never come across someone with such patience and compassion.
Today again Swami remimded us to be in awareness all the time.
Ooopps again have to go. Will continue or update more.....
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Interesting words of the Master
Oct. 27, 2010 (Bidadi)
Interesting words from Swamiji's discoourses / sharing:
1. "This time I'm not going to be crucified, I am not Jesus, I am Kalabhairava."
2. "I have deep love for all of you. I am still in this body just to be with you."
3. "We are all standing together, cosmos will stand with us. We are beautiful flowers in the cosmos."
4. "Let us disappear into courage."
5. "Let us all achieve and radiate enlightenment."
6. "Sanyas is awakening different levels of DNAs."
(will continue...have to go).
Interesting words from Swamiji's discoourses / sharing:
1. "This time I'm not going to be crucified, I am not Jesus, I am Kalabhairava."
2. "I have deep love for all of you. I am still in this body just to be with you."
3. "We are all standing together, cosmos will stand with us. We are beautiful flowers in the cosmos."
4. "Let us disappear into courage."
5. "Let us all achieve and radiate enlightenment."
6. "Sanyas is awakening different levels of DNAs."
(will continue...have to go).
Monday, October 25, 2010
Hug and hugs....and nice healing HUG!
Oct. 25., 2010 (Bidadi)
Recently Swami mentioned in His Nithyananda Sutra (morning talk), how important is mother's hug for a child.
- As Swami always mentioned, don't have to take down notes, if it's meant for you; you will remember. Which ever you don't remember, we don't have to worry about it.
- In that talk, I remember Him saying "even though a child get enough food and nutrition for 14 days but if did not get a hug from the mother.....can cause death". Did I remember it right, or heard the way I wanted to hear? :)
- Then He mentioned something like the mother's doesn't have all her 12 DNA strands awaken. Generally one, normally not even two. Then He connected to how much healing will it be a hug from a cosmic / divine mother who has all her 12 DNA strands awaken?"
- GOD......I don't if all 12 DNA strands of Swamiji is awaken. Or more like I cannot proof or I don't have any scientific or logical data for it.
- One thing I know is my experience. Not only feel the healing, when Swami gives a hug but I know people who are aware, they also feel happy for others.
For sure I can relate when He says His hug is like Divine Mother's hug. Not a single ahsramites want to take it for granted because we have received is many times.
- If we all could remember the moments of energy darshan, maybe you'll remember at least glimpses of what I am sharing. (Doesn't matter whether you are a male/ female/ old / young /devotees or ex-devotees). No one can escape from the blazing light of the Sun and cooling light of the full moon.
Recently Swami mentioned in His Nithyananda Sutra (morning talk), how important is mother's hug for a child.
- As Swami always mentioned, don't have to take down notes, if it's meant for you; you will remember. Which ever you don't remember, we don't have to worry about it.
- In that talk, I remember Him saying "even though a child get enough food and nutrition for 14 days but if did not get a hug from the mother.....can cause death". Did I remember it right, or heard the way I wanted to hear? :)
- Then He mentioned something like the mother's doesn't have all her 12 DNA strands awaken. Generally one, normally not even two. Then He connected to how much healing will it be a hug from a cosmic / divine mother who has all her 12 DNA strands awaken?"
- GOD......I don't if all 12 DNA strands of Swamiji is awaken. Or more like I cannot proof or I don't have any scientific or logical data for it.
- One thing I know is my experience. Not only feel the healing, when Swami gives a hug but I know people who are aware, they also feel happy for others.
For sure I can relate when He says His hug is like Divine Mother's hug. Not a single ahsramites want to take it for granted because we have received is many times.
- If we all could remember the moments of energy darshan, maybe you'll remember at least glimpses of what I am sharing. (Doesn't matter whether you are a male/ female/ old / young /devotees or ex-devotees). No one can escape from the blazing light of the Sun and cooling light of the full moon.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Name and identity
Oct. 22nd, 2010 (Bidadi)
Just thought will share a small story of Master's play with my identity.
When I met Swami my name was Sharmila or also known as Milla. Then on Feb. 14, 2004, I received a spiritual name Ma Ananda Praba. First NSP ever Swami did and this is the first time ever Swami started giving Spiritual Name. For me, then idea was, when divine gives.....just accept humbly. So was happy to receive this name from Swamiji. Even though one corner in my heart, I was think....god! PrabAAA, sounds so masculine. Why not like others...Usha, Shanti, Vimala :)
Of course there's not much choice there. Just accept and live with it. Just because it came from the Master, I started liking it. Or maybe even better, I simply started using it.
Then in the year 2005, I remember reading on the website; Ma Nithyananda Priya Mayi. I clearly remember thinking, "God...what a lucky person, she has her name after the Master". Then I remember Swami gave initiation in the first Nithyanandam program, year 2005 in Bidadi. Of course, I went and sat in the batch, want to apply to become an ashramite. He did some rituals and gave initiation to the group. So lucky me, He didn't ask me any question. Simply let me be in the group and gave the initiation. That time, He announced whoever wants spiritual name they have to commit to change it legally. Since I already have one, I did not apply.
The following year, early 2006 (I think) matter of couple months, Swami was on His world tour visiting US. I remember clearly it was in Sanatana Dharma Temple, LA, CA (DSP). Many were applying for spiritual name. Then a batch of people were called to stand in line to receive spiritual name. One of the LA ashramite (I was not an ashramite then) called me to stand in line too. I remember telling her, 'I already have a spiritual name'. She verified with me, "are you Ma Ananda Praba?". I said "Yes". She said "OK, then stand in line, please."
There comes my turn to get closer to Swamiji. Not knowing what is it about when I already have a spiritual name as Ma Ananda Praba. So now, I am near Swamiji. He gave me energy darshan. Then He uttered "Your name is Ma Nithyananda Praba". When I heard that, I was so happy. Unexpected, just had a thought how someone else is so lucky to have her name after the Master's name. Now He is showering it to me, without even asking. It was a pleasant surprise. I actually jumped-up and gave Him another hug. Yes, this time Swami didn't give me the hug, I gave Him :)
Then I wanted to change my name legally. So Swami suggested to have Nithyananda as the last name. So my name: Ma Nithyananda Praba, legally now my name is Praba Ma Nithyananda. Can't use Ma or Nithyananda as first the name. Almost everyone in the ashram is ma or pa and nithyananda. OK are you following....
By now I already have 3 versions of spiritual name:
Ma Ananda Praba
Ma Nithyananda Praba (legally as Praba Ma Nithyananda)
and after four years ....at the sanyas initiation when Swami gave me energy darshan He uttered
"Ma Nithya Prabananda". Again after bow down and took the kavi from His feet, He said it again "Your name is Ma Nithya Prabananda". I shook my head, confirming, yes...OK :)
So here you go, talking about Master breaking the identity.
Actually, I remember one of the LA ashramite, Sri Niranjana, before I leave to Bidadi in this visit. He said , maybe Swami should give a new name for you. After all these scandal and abusal. I also told him, 'yeah, it will be nice'. But then I thought, well....I already change it legally, I don't think that's going to happen.
The funny thing is even with Ma Nithya Prabananda - legally if I follow as described by Swamiji; my name will be the same as now, Praba Ma Nithyananda. Because I remember Him saying, if you have Nithya and Ananda, just have as Nithyananda as your last name. So Ma Nithya Prabananda legally it will be as my current version Ma Praba Nithyananda. Interesting!
Anyway, with my writing skill...., in the name of sharing, did I confuse You? Started as a small story , now has become a Longgg story :)
Just thought will share a small story of Master's play with my identity.
When I met Swami my name was Sharmila or also known as Milla. Then on Feb. 14, 2004, I received a spiritual name Ma Ananda Praba. First NSP ever Swami did and this is the first time ever Swami started giving Spiritual Name. For me, then idea was, when divine gives.....just accept humbly. So was happy to receive this name from Swamiji. Even though one corner in my heart, I was think....god! PrabAAA, sounds so masculine. Why not like others...Usha, Shanti, Vimala :)
Of course there's not much choice there. Just accept and live with it. Just because it came from the Master, I started liking it. Or maybe even better, I simply started using it.
Then in the year 2005, I remember reading on the website; Ma Nithyananda Priya Mayi. I clearly remember thinking, "God...what a lucky person, she has her name after the Master". Then I remember Swami gave initiation in the first Nithyanandam program, year 2005 in Bidadi. Of course, I went and sat in the batch, want to apply to become an ashramite. He did some rituals and gave initiation to the group. So lucky me, He didn't ask me any question. Simply let me be in the group and gave the initiation. That time, He announced whoever wants spiritual name they have to commit to change it legally. Since I already have one, I did not apply.
The following year, early 2006 (I think) matter of couple months, Swami was on His world tour visiting US. I remember clearly it was in Sanatana Dharma Temple, LA, CA (DSP). Many were applying for spiritual name. Then a batch of people were called to stand in line to receive spiritual name. One of the LA ashramite (I was not an ashramite then) called me to stand in line too. I remember telling her, 'I already have a spiritual name'. She verified with me, "are you Ma Ananda Praba?". I said "Yes". She said "OK, then stand in line, please."
There comes my turn to get closer to Swamiji. Not knowing what is it about when I already have a spiritual name as Ma Ananda Praba. So now, I am near Swamiji. He gave me energy darshan. Then He uttered "Your name is Ma Nithyananda Praba". When I heard that, I was so happy. Unexpected, just had a thought how someone else is so lucky to have her name after the Master's name. Now He is showering it to me, without even asking. It was a pleasant surprise. I actually jumped-up and gave Him another hug. Yes, this time Swami didn't give me the hug, I gave Him :)
Then I wanted to change my name legally. So Swami suggested to have Nithyananda as the last name. So my name: Ma Nithyananda Praba, legally now my name is Praba Ma Nithyananda. Can't use Ma or Nithyananda as first the name. Almost everyone in the ashram is ma or pa and nithyananda. OK are you following....
By now I already have 3 versions of spiritual name:
Ma Ananda Praba
Ma Nithyananda Praba (legally as Praba Ma Nithyananda)
and after four years ....at the sanyas initiation when Swami gave me energy darshan He uttered
"Ma Nithya Prabananda". Again after bow down and took the kavi from His feet, He said it again "Your name is Ma Nithya Prabananda". I shook my head, confirming, yes...OK :)
So here you go, talking about Master breaking the identity.
Actually, I remember one of the LA ashramite, Sri Niranjana, before I leave to Bidadi in this visit. He said , maybe Swami should give a new name for you. After all these scandal and abusal. I also told him, 'yeah, it will be nice'. But then I thought, well....I already change it legally, I don't think that's going to happen.
The funny thing is even with Ma Nithya Prabananda - legally if I follow as described by Swamiji; my name will be the same as now, Praba Ma Nithyananda. Because I remember Him saying, if you have Nithya and Ananda, just have as Nithyananda as your last name. So Ma Nithya Prabananda legally it will be as my current version Ma Praba Nithyananda. Interesting!
Anyway, with my writing skill...., in the name of sharing, did I confuse You? Started as a small story , now has become a Longgg story :)
Thursday, October 21, 2010
17 Oct 2010 eN News - The Celebration
Here's some video clips of the celebration. I happened to read the news. Actually I was feeling sleepy while reading this news.....seriously. I just had a day full of activities.
Initiated into probationary sanyas (Yellow Kavi)
Around 7:30pm on Oct. 17th, 2010 (the last day of Navaratri celebration) received sanyas initiation from Paramahamsa Nithyananda.
The whole event became extra fun and special with Swamiji's spontaneity. Before the initiation, at Vaidhya Sarovar, Prana Maharaj and Bhakta Swami reminded me "after this, you will receive initiation". (I wasn't exactly sure what initiation Swami's going to give me). I guessed could be sanyas because that's one thing I expressed to Him in the year of 2007, when He gave first sanyas initiation in Duarte ashram for other LA ashramites.
You know....with Swami, we can't really predict. When we are very sure, He will flip it to something else. Anyway, so from Vaidhya Sarovar, I left early got ready and went to chit sabha on time. Just before the ceremony, Bhakta Swami came and called Gnanamaya (aka Barathi in LA) and myself to go to the stage from the back end. In the front the stage curtain was still closed..
On the stage, there were only 3 of us to be initiated. I was actually very surprise. It was Gnanamaya, myself, and another Indian male ashramite. So the curtain was opened, with the 3 of us on the stage. It was announced "Probation sanyas will be given to 3 ashramites". My name was called first. Any I was sitting very close to Swami's feet. First Swami gave the Gayatri Initiation and put the sacred thread for me, then He gave me energy darshan with blessings. Finally I bow down and took the Yellow kavi from His feet. After initiated the other 2 ashramites, He went into this 'givers' mood. He asked Prana Maharaj bring out more kavis. Then He was simply calling people's name and gave them upgraded sanyas. From yellow to orange. Also from orange to full kavi. Then He opened to the devotees. Who wants sanyas? Not all from the devotees list who wanted got sanyas, but many did. I could just go on and on, talk about the event.
It was Too Much FUN!
In the Living Enlightenment book, there's a topic Swami talks about Sanyas, for those who are curious about the significance of Sanyas initiation.
The whole event became extra fun and special with Swamiji's spontaneity. Before the initiation, at Vaidhya Sarovar, Prana Maharaj and Bhakta Swami reminded me "after this, you will receive initiation". (I wasn't exactly sure what initiation Swami's going to give me). I guessed could be sanyas because that's one thing I expressed to Him in the year of 2007, when He gave first sanyas initiation in Duarte ashram for other LA ashramites.
You know....with Swami, we can't really predict. When we are very sure, He will flip it to something else. Anyway, so from Vaidhya Sarovar, I left early got ready and went to chit sabha on time. Just before the ceremony, Bhakta Swami came and called Gnanamaya (aka Barathi in LA) and myself to go to the stage from the back end. In the front the stage curtain was still closed..
In the above video link at minute 11:35 - You can see me on the stage, waiting to get the initiation.
On the stage, there were only 3 of us to be initiated. I was actually very surprise. It was Gnanamaya, myself, and another Indian male ashramite. So the curtain was opened, with the 3 of us on the stage. It was announced "Probation sanyas will be given to 3 ashramites". My name was called first. Any I was sitting very close to Swami's feet. First Swami gave the Gayatri Initiation and put the sacred thread for me, then He gave me energy darshan with blessings. Finally I bow down and took the Yellow kavi from His feet. After initiated the other 2 ashramites, He went into this 'givers' mood. He asked Prana Maharaj bring out more kavis. Then He was simply calling people's name and gave them upgraded sanyas. From yellow to orange. Also from orange to full kavi. Then He opened to the devotees. Who wants sanyas? Not all from the devotees list who wanted got sanyas, but many did. I could just go on and on, talk about the event.
It was Too Much FUN!
In the Living Enlightenment book, there's a topic Swami talks about Sanyas, for those who are curious about the significance of Sanyas initiation.
Celebrations part 2 :)
Oct. 20, 2010 (Bidadi)
God....I forgot that I need to update this blog. Anyway, by now you must have heard what happened on the 17th.
Continuing from where I left. So the morning session ended with a beautiful energy darshan.When it was my turn for darshan, I received the darshan first then I bow down to touch swami's feet. By then someone else already getting darshan on His right side. After namaskar, I got-up and started walking away, just like two steps away, Swami called "Hey!" I turned and looked at Him, He said "I will give you initiation today". I just smiled and walked away. Swami had a big smile too.
Then around 3:00pm, there was Holli celebration in the temple (at the entrance of the temple). Swami took orange powder and put some color on Bhakta Swami's face. Then gave the whole tray to him. There goes colorful party. Interesting to witness, nobody got upset. Even though some giving instruction not to put color on them, of course everyone was in a playful mood. So no instruction was obeyed. The interesting part is nobody got upset. Nice to see....the whole crowd participated, laughing and running.
The interesting thing is many of them are living on 'aprigraha' or simplicity. With only two sets of sarees and maybe one or two set of salwar Kameez, seeing all this color on their saree.....made my to be a little concern. With that in mind, and especially for me, I was wearing a brand new ashram saree.....no way I got close to the 'holli crowd'. I stayed in the temple and watched the fun from there. Once in a while when someone run into the temple, I manage to hide myself in the store room :) Uuuhh! manage safe to my saree from the holli colorful powder.
Then from the temple, took all the Navratri deities in a procession to Vaidhya Sarovar (Energized large pond), Immersed the deities in a smaller pond, next to Vaidhya Saravor. Then went to Vaidhya Sarovor and Swami sat on a very beautifully decorated float. The rest when in the pond. Again since I just had my bath and wearing a new saree, I stayed dry and watched the crowd so blissfully singing and dancing in the pond. Nice, fun and loud music was playing. Everybody was having so much fun. It was amazing to witness this. Really, I remember thinking, god.....how blessed are these people, very happy!
Ha! now Swami saw me standing.......from the pond sitting on the float, He waved at me, to come in and take a dip in the pond. OK, now I have to join. Here you go.....went and joined the blissful crowd.
So much fun!
God....I forgot that I need to update this blog. Anyway, by now you must have heard what happened on the 17th.
Continuing from where I left. So the morning session ended with a beautiful energy darshan.When it was my turn for darshan, I received the darshan first then I bow down to touch swami's feet. By then someone else already getting darshan on His right side. After namaskar, I got-up and started walking away, just like two steps away, Swami called "Hey!" I turned and looked at Him, He said "I will give you initiation today". I just smiled and walked away. Swami had a big smile too.
Then around 3:00pm, there was Holli celebration in the temple (at the entrance of the temple). Swami took orange powder and put some color on Bhakta Swami's face. Then gave the whole tray to him. There goes colorful party. Interesting to witness, nobody got upset. Even though some giving instruction not to put color on them, of course everyone was in a playful mood. So no instruction was obeyed. The interesting part is nobody got upset. Nice to see....the whole crowd participated, laughing and running.
The interesting thing is many of them are living on 'aprigraha' or simplicity. With only two sets of sarees and maybe one or two set of salwar Kameez, seeing all this color on their saree.....made my to be a little concern. With that in mind, and especially for me, I was wearing a brand new ashram saree.....no way I got close to the 'holli crowd'. I stayed in the temple and watched the fun from there. Once in a while when someone run into the temple, I manage to hide myself in the store room :) Uuuhh! manage safe to my saree from the holli colorful powder.
Then from the temple, took all the Navratri deities in a procession to Vaidhya Sarovar (Energized large pond), Immersed the deities in a smaller pond, next to Vaidhya Saravor. Then went to Vaidhya Sarovor and Swami sat on a very beautifully decorated float. The rest when in the pond. Again since I just had my bath and wearing a new saree, I stayed dry and watched the crowd so blissfully singing and dancing in the pond. Nice, fun and loud music was playing. Everybody was having so much fun. It was amazing to witness this. Really, I remember thinking, god.....how blessed are these people, very happy!
Ha! now Swami saw me standing.......from the pond sitting on the float, He waved at me, to come in and take a dip in the pond. OK, now I have to join. Here you go.....went and joined the blissful crowd.
So much fun!
Monday, October 18, 2010
Celebration after celebration ......
Oct. 18, 2010 (Bidadi)
-Yesterday was the end Dasara celebration. Yesterday the celebration went on the whole day here in Bidadi.
- I started my day preparing for Guru Puja, then of course attended the Pratyaksha Pada Puja and Swami's morning message. Oh, prior to that, there was Devi abishekam. Beautiful.....really nice. Yes, Swami did it.
(I think it was called Patta Abishekam)
-Swami's morning message, He showered 'blessings' to everything and everyone including to Him. That was very unique.
-Then in the same space we had cultural program. Cultural program started with performance by the Gurukal kids. It was very cute and fun. Then a few brahmacharinis sang songs. Finally....a grand finale; a surprise to everyone, the brahmacharis, brought a very beautifully decorated Devi, like a dancing procession. It was beautifully done. Look for the pictures on our website www.dhyanapeetam.org and these boys they also sang Shiva Purana.
Swami sang along with them in the beginning.
-Swami said He was so pleased with these brahmacharis. The software engineers, doctors and all kind of successful people in their career world, know nothing about Vedic Tradition, and now able to come up with this and also sang praises of Lord Shiva.
-For me, when I saw, it was like Swami gave 'birth' to these brahmacharis, the beginning of new life. Spiritual life. (have to go.....will continue)
-Yesterday was the end Dasara celebration. Yesterday the celebration went on the whole day here in Bidadi.
- I started my day preparing for Guru Puja, then of course attended the Pratyaksha Pada Puja and Swami's morning message. Oh, prior to that, there was Devi abishekam. Beautiful.....really nice. Yes, Swami did it.
(I think it was called Patta Abishekam)
-Swami's morning message, He showered 'blessings' to everything and everyone including to Him. That was very unique.
-Then in the same space we had cultural program. Cultural program started with performance by the Gurukal kids. It was very cute and fun. Then a few brahmacharinis sang songs. Finally....a grand finale; a surprise to everyone, the brahmacharis, brought a very beautifully decorated Devi, like a dancing procession. It was beautifully done. Look for the pictures on our website www.dhyanapeetam.org and these boys they also sang Shiva Purana.
Swami sang along with them in the beginning.
-Swami said He was so pleased with these brahmacharis. The software engineers, doctors and all kind of successful people in their career world, know nothing about Vedic Tradition, and now able to come up with this and also sang praises of Lord Shiva.
-For me, when I saw, it was like Swami gave 'birth' to these brahmacharis, the beginning of new life. Spiritual life. (have to go.....will continue)
Saturday, October 16, 2010
TRUST
Thinking back on my experiences, I find Swamiji keeps giving me more than I give, and I feel Swamiji never took anything from me. Whatever I've given was donated willingly. I paid for some programs and donated for services the mission is doing. So Swami owes me nothing.
Swami only gave, more than I can give, especially when it comes to trust. In society I would not be qualified and people wouldn't trust me for the big tasks that Swami gave me the opportunity to do. Basically I do not have the knowledge for it. Even I would not give that much trust to myself.
I would not trust myself to manage the temple. Not only I was managing the temple, I was coordinating it at the national level. I would not trust myself to represent Vedic culture to the public. He put me out in front - I had such a personal connection with many devotees - trusting me with his good reputation. I handled so much cash and made many decisions that involved so much spending. I couldn't believe I was hand picked to do such seva. Many many times, I made blundering mistakes - even I would have been so upset with myself - but Swami never 'poked' me on these points. If needed He questioned me but He kept on trusting me and giving me opportunities to do even bigger things. He keep on giving me chances, to do it again and again and again till I feel comfortable or till I grow.
I trust Swamiji because He trusted me more than I trust myself.
Navaratri - Chandi Homa
Oct.16, 2010 (Bidadi)
We just finish 2nd day Chandi Homa. The highlight is the gurukal kids (boys and girls) were worshiped.
Then followed by brahmacharinis and rishis (married woman). To witness Swamiji (an incarnation) to pay respect and do puja was the best.
Being a woman, I can tell, actually in Swami's ashram women are treated so divinely. Women are empowered. Of course, even this statement can be manipulated.Only thing I can tell you is, don't worry about what others say, what media projects, ........instead remember your time with Swamiji. Was He very patient and healing or the other way around?
We just finish 2nd day Chandi Homa. The highlight is the gurukal kids (boys and girls) were worshiped.
Then followed by brahmacharinis and rishis (married woman). To witness Swamiji (an incarnation) to pay respect and do puja was the best.
Being a woman, I can tell, actually in Swami's ashram women are treated so divinely. Women are empowered. Of course, even this statement can be manipulated.Only thing I can tell you is, don't worry about what others say, what media projects, ........instead remember your time with Swamiji. Was He very patient and healing or the other way around?
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Always something special ...
Oct. 12, 2010 (Bidadi)
Today's special was Maheswara Puja. mmm....Maheswara Puja itself is not that special for me but getting food from Swami's hand is the highlight. Yes!
I've heard when Enlightened Beings eat food in someone's house, it seems they also 'swallow' their (the host) sins and karma. And imagine this is even better sharing food with the Enlightened Being (like a big family).
Of course generally only the Sanyasis gets it but Master is too compassionate so He gave to the Rishis (married couples) too. I am neither Sanyasi nor Rishi, again here comes Master's compassion, and gave me handful of rice from His plate.
The idea behind Maheswara Puja is to do Shanti prayers and feel the soul that has left the body. Since sanyasis have renounced everything and they are considered as do not have any identity or attachment, so feeding them is like feeding the cosmos and believe will reach the soul. (that's my understanding)
It was fun! I served the sanyasis food. today is the first Maheswara Puja, my ego was not in the was at all.
It was a nice feeling.
Today's special was Maheswara Puja. mmm....Maheswara Puja itself is not that special for me but getting food from Swami's hand is the highlight. Yes!
I've heard when Enlightened Beings eat food in someone's house, it seems they also 'swallow' their (the host) sins and karma. And imagine this is even better sharing food with the Enlightened Being (like a big family).
Of course generally only the Sanyasis gets it but Master is too compassionate so He gave to the Rishis (married couples) too. I am neither Sanyasi nor Rishi, again here comes Master's compassion, and gave me handful of rice from His plate.
The idea behind Maheswara Puja is to do Shanti prayers and feel the soul that has left the body. Since sanyasis have renounced everything and they are considered as do not have any identity or attachment, so feeding them is like feeding the cosmos and believe will reach the soul. (that's my understanding)
It was fun! I served the sanyasis food. today is the first Maheswara Puja, my ego was not in the was at all.
It was a nice feeling.
Monday, October 11, 2010
LEP comes to an end.....
Oct. 11, 2010 (Bidadi)
Yes, LEP session comes to an end today, well...maybe yesterday evening around 7:30pm, after the energy darshan. But I personally think the work is just going to begin. More than 40 participants received Swami's energized paduka. They have committed to have satsang centers.
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A small tip:
It seems whatever thoughts we have while eating and bathing we tend to execute it unconsciously. So at least while bathing and eating we should have awareness. Of course I heard this from the Master. So just sharing.....
Yes, LEP session comes to an end today, well...maybe yesterday evening around 7:30pm, after the energy darshan. But I personally think the work is just going to begin. More than 40 participants received Swami's energized paduka. They have committed to have satsang centers.
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A small tip:
It seems whatever thoughts we have while eating and bathing we tend to execute it unconsciously. So at least while bathing and eating we should have awareness. Of course I heard this from the Master. So just sharing.....
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Very Special Day....
Oct. 9, 2010 (Bidadi)
Today's been another 'ultimate' or another exceptionally beautiful for me.
This morning I had an opportunity to do Pratyaksha Pada puja again. This is my 3rd time, since I've been in Bidadi in this visit. Today I got the center spot. As though so close to the Divine and had the blessings to see Him with full heart. Just so content. Honestly, now even this desire to do pada puja has been fullfilled. Even though I have done it in the past, still I always feel greedy to do pada puja for Swamiji. Just because I've read and heard the benefits of it. I feel so blessed to do that seva, washing the feet of the divine and doing seva for the divine mother. For me, one of the ultimate thing, can be done in this body is doing seva for the Divine Mother. Anyway, that's me and my 'world'.
Today after the puja, Swami gave me blessings. God....He said something that I always wanted to hear from him. He said something like this "All the auspiciousness.........(can't remember the rest and then I heard) You will be with me and I will be with you." If you notice, Swami always says 'I will be with You'. Which I know divine is very compassionate, He is always with me. The thing I know is me and my mind, tend to ignore and prevent to be connected to the existence.
Very few times, I've heard Swami blesses 'You will be with me'. As matter of fact I've heard it only once, He blessed Bhakta Swami in Duarte for his birthday either in 2006 or 2007. Even then itself, I thought...'wow, this is different, He says You will be with Me?'. That's rare.
This time, when I arrived in Bidadi and got my first blessings, I think Swami did say the same thing, 'You will be with me." But as usual the mind plays a game...I start doubting, 'did He really said that'? But today I know for sure He said it. He made sure I heard it well too. Swami said very slowly, He paused and stressed it when He said "You will be with ME, I will be With YOU".
Oh another important thing, when said that, I am Not relating with His physical form. I understood as I will always be connected to This Divine Energy. Yes, no doubt I enjoy being in the presence of the Master. But many people, automatically make a conclusion, that being with Him means being around Him in His physical presence. NO, at least for me it means I will be with the flow of His energy, not against the current. Being able to recognize & experience He is Formless is a blessing.
Today's been another 'ultimate' or another exceptionally beautiful for me.
This morning I had an opportunity to do Pratyaksha Pada puja again. This is my 3rd time, since I've been in Bidadi in this visit. Today I got the center spot. As though so close to the Divine and had the blessings to see Him with full heart. Just so content. Honestly, now even this desire to do pada puja has been fullfilled. Even though I have done it in the past, still I always feel greedy to do pada puja for Swamiji. Just because I've read and heard the benefits of it. I feel so blessed to do that seva, washing the feet of the divine and doing seva for the divine mother. For me, one of the ultimate thing, can be done in this body is doing seva for the Divine Mother. Anyway, that's me and my 'world'.
Today after the puja, Swami gave me blessings. God....He said something that I always wanted to hear from him. He said something like this "All the auspiciousness.........(can't remember the rest and then I heard) You will be with me and I will be with you." If you notice, Swami always says 'I will be with You'. Which I know divine is very compassionate, He is always with me. The thing I know is me and my mind, tend to ignore and prevent to be connected to the existence.
Very few times, I've heard Swami blesses 'You will be with me'. As matter of fact I've heard it only once, He blessed Bhakta Swami in Duarte for his birthday either in 2006 or 2007. Even then itself, I thought...'wow, this is different, He says You will be with Me?'. That's rare.
This time, when I arrived in Bidadi and got my first blessings, I think Swami did say the same thing, 'You will be with me." But as usual the mind plays a game...I start doubting, 'did He really said that'? But today I know for sure He said it. He made sure I heard it well too. Swami said very slowly, He paused and stressed it when He said "You will be with ME, I will be With YOU".
Oh another important thing, when said that, I am Not relating with His physical form. I understood as I will always be connected to This Divine Energy. Yes, no doubt I enjoy being in the presence of the Master. But many people, automatically make a conclusion, that being with Him means being around Him in His physical presence. NO, at least for me it means I will be with the flow of His energy, not against the current. Being able to recognize & experience He is Formless is a blessing.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Gang is back from Himalayas
Oct. 6, 2010 (Bidadi)
Swami arrived in the ashram yesterday around 2:30pm. All the ashramites, Gurukal kids, Brahmacaris, Brahmacarinis, Rishis', LEP participants and volunteers, gathered in front of the temple to receive Swamiji.
What else.....mmm, well...., I will stop here for now. If I think of something else, I will share more.
Swami arrived in the ashram yesterday around 2:30pm. All the ashramites, Gurukal kids, Brahmacaris, Brahmacarinis, Rishis', LEP participants and volunteers, gathered in front of the temple to receive Swamiji.
- More than excitement, for me is like deep relief and a kind of feeling that was subtle the same time deep peace and happiness to see Swamiji.
- This season being around Swamiji, one major highlight is witnessing His grace deeper than what I saw in the past. Every single movement is so graceful. There's not a single dot of violence. Even when He's handling His handkerchief.
- Swami spent about 30 to 40 minutes with all of us in the temple. Sharing some progress that happened in the trip. His met with Nirvani Akkada people.
- Obstacles and miracles in the Himalayas. One of the path was blocked for safety reason. So the senior ashramite came and reported to Swami that "we can't go there". The road is closed. ....." Swami then asked him to show the route on a map. Swami put His finger one the map and moved His finger on the route (map) this Yatra has to travel, to clear the obstacles. Soon the ashramite came back and reported that they can continue with the plan. The road is now open to the public.
- So many other nice things He shared.....I forgot, sorry!
- After the meet in the temple, Swami spent more than 2 hours with the ashramites. That was fun!
- Oh in the meeting Swami gave His mother, blessings to conduct eN-Satsang. Any number of people can get together in one place (doesn't even have to be large group); devotee's house, log into Skype, arrange the best time with Bidadi team...we will arrange 'amma' to share her view and experience. For now she will speak in Tamil. I think that's really cool! To hear the 'mother' speak. email: ia@nithyananda.org or if you know me, feel free to contact me. Will get you a spot.
What else.....mmm, well...., I will stop here for now. If I think of something else, I will share more.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Nadi or Palm Leaf Reading - Ancient Science
Oct.4, 2010 (Bidadi)
Palm leaf reading or also known as Nadi. I've heard about but now it's a 'hot' thing here again. Many of the LEP participants who didn't join the Himalayas trip, went to Pondicherry for the Nadi reading.
It's very interesting to hear all their experiences. I had a chance to sit and listen first hand experience of participant. He's from New Zealand. He said how this Nadi reader able to tell his parents name, how many siblings and some of his personal life information accurately. Then the Nadi reader also mentioned about His Spiritual life it seems. Everything seems like pretty accurate. In fact the Nadi reader also mentioned about Swami's blessings for the individuals and blessings for the group.
Talking about Nadi reading, a senior ashramites was mentioning about Nadi reading for Swamiji. It's pretty interesting to hear about Swami's reading. I am sure most of you have come across it, but here is the link:
Palm leaf reading or also known as Nadi. I've heard about but now it's a 'hot' thing here again. Many of the LEP participants who didn't join the Himalayas trip, went to Pondicherry for the Nadi reading.
It's very interesting to hear all their experiences. I had a chance to sit and listen first hand experience of participant. He's from New Zealand. He said how this Nadi reader able to tell his parents name, how many siblings and some of his personal life information accurately. Then the Nadi reader also mentioned about His Spiritual life it seems. Everything seems like pretty accurate. In fact the Nadi reader also mentioned about Swami's blessings for the individuals and blessings for the group.
Talking about Nadi reading, a senior ashramites was mentioning about Nadi reading for Swamiji. It's pretty interesting to hear about Swami's reading. I am sure most of you have come across it, but here is the link:
My 1st Pratyaksha Padha Pooja to Swami's feet in Duarte, in 2007.
Paramahamsa Nithyananda - Krishna Nee Begane
Oct.3rd, 2010 (Bidadi)
For those who are in LOVE with the Divine,
please watch it with your heart!
For those who are in LOVE with the Divine,
please watch it with your heart!
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Found a funny blog
http://standup-for-dog.blogspot.com/2010/05/stand-up-for-dog-instead.html
Note: For those who are not aware, there is an anti-social (spiritual) element group created a blog calling Standup for Swamiji (Nithyananda). You know if they are anti-spiritual, what type of content they must have posted. So I guess this stand-up for dog is the antidote.
Note: For those who are not aware, there is an anti-social (spiritual) element group created a blog calling Standup for Swamiji (Nithyananda). You know if they are anti-spiritual, what type of content they must have posted. So I guess this stand-up for dog is the antidote.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Trust even if you are exploited!
Oct. 2, 2010 (Bidadi) Just wanted to share a small incident that happened recently in the Bidadi Ashram.
Actually, beside our regular tasks in the ashram, there was an initiative from one of the senior Maharaj, he decided to help the brahmacharis and brahmacarinis to internalize Swami's teachings.
One of the way is to have a very short discussion or forum. This is whenever we are chatting while waiting for the meeting to start or in the dining room chit-chatting while eating, he suggested we will start talking about Swami or His teachings. Even if it's just for 5 minutes. He said the whole problem with our mission is because we never internalize Swami's words and no depth in understanding about the mission . (again these are my words, can't remember exact words he used).
Another thing that he suggested was to do a thorough research and study of a favorite topic or a something relevant to our service in the mission. This he said "do a presentation". He said like presentation in the colleges. Then he went around asking for topics voluntarily. Here you go, I raised my hand and suggested "being in the presence of the Master". The rational behind that topic was I truly believe there will be a huge transformation being in the presence of the Living Master but I always had difficulty to put it in words when my friends talk to me on this subject in a debating or argumentative way. And on top of it now my seva (volunteering service) is doing the Healing Tower work, sharing my spiritual experience.
If I am given the power to decide for all my friends and family (of course family in a big picture, all the devotees) I will bring all of them to this up coming Inner Awakening Program, so they can be in the physical presence of the Master, especially now He is out after a major abusal from the society and being in the seclusion for 53 days. One should be in His presence, then they will understand what are they missing. They may not know now right away, but I tell you from my experience, this will allow Swamiji to give birth to a 'NEW YOU'. Oh God.... I just wish everybody could see the importance of it. Anyway based on this, I thought if I internalize it, I will be able to express and verbalize it better, so it will benefit others and myself.
Now, came my turn and I said out loud the topic 'Being in the Presence of the Master'. Maharaj looked at me, the very next second, he said "Ma...you have deeper experience, come-up with some other topic'. I think He gave that topic to some other bramacharinis. Oh no...!
Here you go, next 15 minutes, I was thinking all different type of topics. In fact I told Maharaj, "something deeper???" laughingly I said "should I talk about societies' abuses to be a spiritual seeker". We laughed and he said, 'no, you don't have to talk about that'. I raised my hand again, told him "Why don't you suggest a topic for me." He said "I've been thinking, but nothing is falling in place yet". In matter of minutes he said he thought of a topic for me.
Can you Guess???? He said .......
Honestly my first reaction was..................to Cry. It was like arrows of words hit me. Really, after that whole time I was in the meeting, whenever I think about this title.....felt like crying.
Somehow, I felt like, it was a painful experience. I really wondered based on what did he pick that title for me.
The title is "TRUST even if you are Exploited"
Recently, I went through a divorce. The divorce happened in such an 'ugly' and painful way ( that was my experience). Some how I felt strongly, I lived Master's teachings the whole time 'Trusted and trusted and trusted.....'. Each time.....I gave my trust, I received as a return exploitation." Just by one person. Truly, that was my experience and feeling. Whether it's my ego or imagination or truth................that's is the strong experience I went through my divorce.
Never, I understood the concept of 'trust even if you are exploited'. When first time I heard from Swamiji, I wondered....'how can you trust someone, when you are exploited'?. I remember Swami was referring to Ma Sarada Devi's life.
God....I must have either picked up from Swamiji or He must have 'installed' that 'software' or His bio-memory in me, to trust someone, to live life with trust. Honestly.....if you know my story of divorce, I am pretty sure you will agree with me, that my trust was exploited each time. However as mentioned in Swami's teaching, when you trust even when we are exploited, we do live like a king. It doesn't make sense, but this is like spirituality....it's beyond logic. Again I am stuck, not able to verbalize.
However the good news is one of my dear friends, with whom I've shared most of my personal life story especially the journey I went through while divorcing and my life after that, put my experience of 'TRUST even if you are exploited' in writing, with the idea to help me to present the topic relating it with my personal life story and end with Master's teachings.
I did promise to some of you, I will email that content.....still not comfortable to share it up in the web publicly. But I am willing to share, just email me....if I know you, I will share it with you.
Here you go.......................my sharing for today.
Actually, beside our regular tasks in the ashram, there was an initiative from one of the senior Maharaj, he decided to help the brahmacharis and brahmacarinis to internalize Swami's teachings.
One of the way is to have a very short discussion or forum. This is whenever we are chatting while waiting for the meeting to start or in the dining room chit-chatting while eating, he suggested we will start talking about Swami or His teachings. Even if it's just for 5 minutes. He said the whole problem with our mission is because we never internalize Swami's words and no depth in understanding about the mission . (again these are my words, can't remember exact words he used).
Another thing that he suggested was to do a thorough research and study of a favorite topic or a something relevant to our service in the mission. This he said "do a presentation". He said like presentation in the colleges. Then he went around asking for topics voluntarily. Here you go, I raised my hand and suggested "being in the presence of the Master". The rational behind that topic was I truly believe there will be a huge transformation being in the presence of the Living Master but I always had difficulty to put it in words when my friends talk to me on this subject in a debating or argumentative way. And on top of it now my seva (volunteering service) is doing the Healing Tower work, sharing my spiritual experience.
If I am given the power to decide for all my friends and family (of course family in a big picture, all the devotees) I will bring all of them to this up coming Inner Awakening Program, so they can be in the physical presence of the Master, especially now He is out after a major abusal from the society and being in the seclusion for 53 days. One should be in His presence, then they will understand what are they missing. They may not know now right away, but I tell you from my experience, this will allow Swamiji to give birth to a 'NEW YOU'. Oh God.... I just wish everybody could see the importance of it. Anyway based on this, I thought if I internalize it, I will be able to express and verbalize it better, so it will benefit others and myself.
Now, came my turn and I said out loud the topic 'Being in the Presence of the Master'. Maharaj looked at me, the very next second, he said "Ma...you have deeper experience, come-up with some other topic'. I think He gave that topic to some other bramacharinis. Oh no...!
Here you go, next 15 minutes, I was thinking all different type of topics. In fact I told Maharaj, "something deeper???" laughingly I said "should I talk about societies' abuses to be a spiritual seeker". We laughed and he said, 'no, you don't have to talk about that'. I raised my hand again, told him "Why don't you suggest a topic for me." He said "I've been thinking, but nothing is falling in place yet". In matter of minutes he said he thought of a topic for me.
Can you Guess???? He said .......
Honestly my first reaction was..................to Cry. It was like arrows of words hit me. Really, after that whole time I was in the meeting, whenever I think about this title.....felt like crying.
Somehow, I felt like, it was a painful experience. I really wondered based on what did he pick that title for me.
The title is "TRUST even if you are Exploited"
Recently, I went through a divorce. The divorce happened in such an 'ugly' and painful way ( that was my experience). Some how I felt strongly, I lived Master's teachings the whole time 'Trusted and trusted and trusted.....'. Each time.....I gave my trust, I received as a return exploitation." Just by one person. Truly, that was my experience and feeling. Whether it's my ego or imagination or truth................that's is the strong experience I went through my divorce.
Never, I understood the concept of 'trust even if you are exploited'. When first time I heard from Swamiji, I wondered....'how can you trust someone, when you are exploited'?. I remember Swami was referring to Ma Sarada Devi's life.
God....I must have either picked up from Swamiji or He must have 'installed' that 'software' or His bio-memory in me, to trust someone, to live life with trust. Honestly.....if you know my story of divorce, I am pretty sure you will agree with me, that my trust was exploited each time. However as mentioned in Swami's teaching, when you trust even when we are exploited, we do live like a king. It doesn't make sense, but this is like spirituality....it's beyond logic. Again I am stuck, not able to verbalize.
However the good news is one of my dear friends, with whom I've shared most of my personal life story especially the journey I went through while divorcing and my life after that, put my experience of 'TRUST even if you are exploited' in writing, with the idea to help me to present the topic relating it with my personal life story and end with Master's teachings.
I did promise to some of you, I will email that content.....still not comfortable to share it up in the web publicly. But I am willing to share, just email me....if I know you, I will share it with you.
Here you go.......................my sharing for today.
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