It's not easy for me to open-up but everything there is a limit. He is not stopping, keep on abusing my religious sentiment. Doug is the one who have the cunning and devilish mind. So I thought it's time for me to speak.
Yes, I was also attached with my identity with the spouse too. I didn't have any family members here in the US, other than his family. So my world was very much attached to him and his family. Emotionally it was so hard, to think about it. But one thing, I know for sure Swami's teaching base on the book 'Guaranteed Solutions' helped a lot. Also the click, 'live in the present moment, don't live in the past or future' was very helpful too.
Master is beyond form and He is the existence. Believing Master is beyond 6' form, He is formless and He is taking care of me is the 'mantra' helped me a lot. Trusting Guru is beyond form and He will help His child, is what able to make me to cross this. Guru (the existence) gives intelligence and sends help in every form. Trust in Guru dissolved the trap.
Really this are not just words, but true experience, how I faced married to a man who was extremely manipulative & control freak in my life. With Guru's grace and I am still able to live happily without depression.
We are blessed, ma.
