Parabhakti sharing - I

Ignorant to Enlightenment

Did not recognize Him - Met Swamiji for the 1st time on August 19, 2003, in the South San Jose, CA temple.  He led mahamantra meditation. After the meditation, saw Swami was having food that was kept for public. He used regular disposable plate and utensils.  That was a surprise to me. Took a black and white flyer back home and decided let me give a try.  What ‘meditation’ is all about?

He found a place in my heart - Attended the 1st program ever Swamjii offered in Northern California.  The last session for the 1st day was a game.  At one point he said “who is not married, come out!”  So I ran and stood next to him.  Some participants, called my name and said “you are married”.  I was surprise!  I heard it right, yes, who is not married, but still went to the front.  It was mind blowing for me. Went and sat in silence. He brought the little girl inside me out! Wow, when was the last time I felt like this? He shed my societal identity and status.

Scandal before the scandal - Swamiji had his rumor scandal in march 2010, I had my own rumor scandal in 2008.  Of course the magnitude of Swamiji’s was huge.   My rumor scandal was big enough for me.   My ex-husband started a rumor way before Lenin Karuppan and Arti did for swamiji.  He spread the rumor tantric sex is being practiced in the ashram, I am sleeping with my own Guru and many other guys. I was devastated to hear such statement from my own husband. I felt like I was stabbed by someone I trusted and shared my life.  It was one of the most painful moment in my life ever.  The more he abuse Swamiji the more I felt gratitude and devotion, seeing the sacrifice a Guru has to go through to liberate one soul.One thing I was clear, if I can be labeled with lies, why not swamiji.  I went through a small version of it.  So the rumor scandal of Swamiji did not shake the trust in Swamiji. I had a soft corner for Ranjitha because I am woman who had a glimpse of being a victim.

He is an Incarnation - It was T’sunami fighting against the society current about the rumor scandal and to stand by the Master. The blessings is feeling gratitude became even deeper. I saw divine qualities in Him did not change at all even during the lowest point of HIS life.   I took up the Healing Tower responsibility, call the all the old devotees, spoke to almost every single one. People threatened, questioned, furious, faced it all, and now my feeling connection to the Master is way stronger than ever. This rumor scandal made this mind to surrender and accept the reality, Yes HE is an incarnation.  No human can withstand this attack gracefully.