Sex, porn & relationship

Check out video clip below.  Swamiji speaks on sex, porn and relationship.

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How much it will take a trained police officer to stop this kindergarten child without using handcuff?  Don't  know how dangerous this kid was that the police had to handcuffed the child but the story describing the child's attitude and the police as though no choice and had to handcuff a 6 year old kid sounds like the story Doug came up to get restraining order against  me.
http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/sideshow/6-old-girl-handcuffed-police-over-tantrum-001249882.html

Do you know, that Doug got a restraining order against me for a divorce?

Do you know he kicked me out of my own house in the winter on a rainy day, saying I am danger for his life?

Do you know he lied in the court to get restraining order against me and keep the house for himself?

How much of a danger can I be to his life?

Do you know he made sure I do not have any money with me even for basic survival, when he kicked me out of the house?

Do you know when my brothers wanted to send money to help me, he contacted them and tell lies about me and try to influence them not to help me?  

Do you know he went on project to all my friends and family that I am cheating on him and living with him just swindle more money from him?

Do you know he is the one who did all the above and worse things and try to project it on me?

Do you know, he brought my mother all the way from Malaysia to witness the break-up I was going through in marriage and his mother who lives around the corner 30 minutes, didn't get her involve?

Do you understand the pain my mother had to go through, seeing her daughter's marriage falling a part and witnessing all the fight we were going through?

This is how Doug can be mean.  Outside looks so caring but inside he can be extremely cunning.  My mother is a simple Asian woman.  All she wants to see her daughter to have a good life. She doesn't even speak proper English.  That was really hard to see, my mother crying,  witness falling of my marriage.  God.....

My God....many things I cannot even verbalized.  Somethings you can only understand when you witness or experience it. 

Anyway it is a blessing that I was practicing Swamiji's teachings.  Doug keep on blaming Swamiji and everyone around him, just to hide his weak and ugly side of him.  How long he can cook-up stories? Doug is trying project Swamiji like the bad person.  

Meanwhile Swamij has been listed as one of the 100 most spiritually influential personalities in the world by the Mind, Body, Spirit magazine -- Watkins.  Along with Dalai Lama, Nelson Mandela, Oprah....Swamiji is only 34 years old. 

Black Magic

Nithyanandam,

There is a question, to share about black magic issues that I had to deal with Doug.

It's a joke to think about it now but then it was a mental torture, living with a man who wants to clean me up because I am supposedly under the black magic influence. Why he think that way?  Because I am following Swamiji's teachings. He constantly talks about black magic.  How he was a victim of black magic in the past and now. He always talked about ghost in his office.  He had some kind of 'black color oil'  and said that he wanted to put on me so I can be cleaned from the black magic.  It really sounds silly.  But can you imagine, your spouse is very serious about this and forcing to apply all this weird things on you. This is what I mean by mental torture.

The only soul knew, all my pain was Swamiji. Of course after following Swami's teachings I became more independent and also transparent. No doubt Swami's teachings gave me courage in life to live.  

"I am not here to prove I am God. I am here to prove YOU are God!"
- Paramahamsa Nithyananda

When we start realizing our divinity and start living like god (higher potentials & possibilities), society that has vested interest in us, surely will feel threaten and insecure.

Even to think about Doug is waste of time & energy!

Nithyanandam,

I thought can speak and share the other side of the story of Doug.  He keep on abusing Swamiji and all the devotees.  He knows this is a way to hurt all of Swami's followers, including me.  So I thought, let me also tell Doug's story. Let me tell, surely it is not easy. God....really don't know what type of mental set-up and brain this Doug has to maintain the cult blog.Thinking about this fellow itself make me feel not interested and only feel sick.  To think and write about him, it drains my energy. 



Now I understand,  it is surely million times easier to share something beautiful and healthy.  Good thing simply overflows, and rejuvenates our being.  I will continue to share here and there but think will focus more on Swami's great teachings.  Again, we simply keeping quiet for this type abusing action is also not right.  Swami want us to be strong like Shiva and compassionate like Devi.  

Only thought that's keep crossing my mind is "so grateful, divine saved me".