Even to think about Doug is waste of time & energy!

Nithyanandam,

I thought can speak and share the other side of the story of Doug.  He keep on abusing Swamiji and all the devotees.  He knows this is a way to hurt all of Swami's followers, including me.  So I thought, let me also tell Doug's story. Let me tell, surely it is not easy. God....really don't know what type of mental set-up and brain this Doug has to maintain the cult blog.Thinking about this fellow itself make me feel not interested and only feel sick.  To think and write about him, it drains my energy. 



Now I understand,  it is surely million times easier to share something beautiful and healthy.  Good thing simply overflows, and rejuvenates our being.  I will continue to share here and there but think will focus more on Swami's great teachings.  Again, we simply keeping quiet for this type abusing action is also not right.  Swami want us to be strong like Shiva and compassionate like Devi.  

Only thought that's keep crossing my mind is "so grateful, divine saved me". 

Mental set-up & Attitude that matters

Nithyanandam, 

Still remember one incident when I newly moved to US.  My parents also were there visiting for the 1st time.  Only for 1 week or 10 days they were visiting.  I was shocked Doug was already controlling and feeling insecure when one young boy (younger than my brother - one thing I could remember he was like my younger brother) in my parents presence.  Doug made big big issue out of nothing for 2 minutes conversation I had with that boy.  God...I was shocked.  Even my parents were shocked.  My mom and dad witnessed these 'lovely' scene. At home I was raised, with so much trust and space to live my life.

He did the same thing in my marriage with him.  When ever I have friends he will count the spoons and forks.  He will come and tell me that all these people are thieves.  Many times he said my friends are thieves.  I use to feel so sad. He will say things like they must have stolen some spoons and forks.  These people are wealthy and have good job and stable family.  Actually those utensils are only Walmart bought, can guarantee didn't cost us more than $5.  Not even the material but the attitude that counts. 

 

Abuse own Guru

I met Doug in Malaysia, year 1999.  We were introduce by a Hindu Sadhu, she is in full kavi, but she was married and her husband passed away. She runs a Devi temple.  There's a lot of mystical stories about this temple.  There's a huge Banyan tree and about 8' tall, standing Kali. Actually this temple itself is a miracle. 

It is located behind Mid Valley, Megamall in Malaysia.

Moogambika temple – Kuala Lumpur (Malaysia)

There's interesting story behind this Mid Valley temple (Kuala Lumpur) was that, during it's construction, the Mid valley management wanted to remove this Hindu temple but somehow they couldn't. I heard the guy who insisted to tear this temple down actually had an accident and died.  The worker who had to remove also got into an accident.  Then the word was spread shouldn't remove the temple.   The new construction person, was Chinese.  Chinese normally are Buddhist and they respect Hindu tradition. Story says Devi appeared in the dream of the owner of Mid valley and told him to retain the temple. The management decided to leave it there and then refurbish into a magnificent temple under their own cost.  It may sound simple but it is a miracle for the temple to stand majestically in a Islamic country.  Muslims do not believe in deity worship and in general the construction guys will not hesitate to demolish any Hindu temples.  Many temples here in Malaysia, stand by their 'own power'.

Doug claims the 'amma' of this temple is his Guru. Actually she introduce us / match made us.  However this guy who is surely "anti-Hindu" created a rumor scandal about my Guru. To make his lies look like true, he even abuse so call his own guru, who supposed helped him a lot in the past.  He said all bad things about her to my parents and myself, during the process of our separation period.  If he can abuse his own Guru, I should have known better he can abuse Swamiji and any Master.  And this guy talks about Dharma?  This is the personality of Doug, he can damage anyone for his benefit, doesn't matter even if it's his own guru or wife.

God.....existence surely has protected me in the form of Devi and Swamiji.  The Mother or Devi form has always been close to my heart.  Most of the time I relate with Swamiji as the Divine Mother, such compassion.

Trust in Guru Dissolved the Trap

Nithyanandam Ma Sarvika,

It's not easy for me to open-up but everything there is a limit.  He is not stopping, keep on abusing my religious sentiment. Doug is the one who have the cunning and devilish mind. So I thought it's time for me to speak.

Yes, I was also attached with my identity with the spouse too.  I didn't have any family members here in the US, other than his family.  So my world was very much attached to him and his family. Emotionally it was so hard, to think about it.  But one thing, I know for sure Swami's teaching base on the book 'Guaranteed Solutions' helped a lot. Also the click, 'live in the present moment, don't live in the past or future' was very helpful too.

Master is beyond form and He is the existence. Believing Master is beyond 6' form, He is formless and He is taking care of me is the 'mantra' helped me a lot.  Trusting Guru is beyond form and He will help His child, is what able to make me to cross this.  Guru (the existence) gives intelligence and sends help in every form. Trust in Guru dissolved the trap.

Really this are not just words, but true experience, how I faced married to a man who was extremely manipulative & control freak in my life. With Guru's grace and I am still able to live happily without depression. 

We are blessed, ma.

The Scandal Before the Scandal

Breaking my silence after 4 years....

God, life is surely very interesting…….

Thought Doug had come to his senses and is finally focusing on life but realized he is still busy managing ‘cult blog’ and monitoring other people’s life.

Where is the basis for his filthy attacks?  He has the audacity to talk about an enlightened Master, who was born and brought up in Thiruvannamalai, at the foothills of Arunachala—a place with more than 2,000 years of unbroken lineage of enlightened masters and now passed on to Paramahamsa Nithyananda, Swamiji.

The people there, whose life is Arunachala, Siva… they are worshipping Swamiji so who is this Doug to even question about Swamiji and His Divinity?

First of all, Doug doesn’t even have anyone who will stand by him till end of their life.  So he’s filled with jealousy because Swamiji has so many people that worship and revere him.

Second, after living with Doug, I can 100% testify he falls in depression all the time.  And he will not come out of depression easily. Now, to think about it, I don’t know if he has ever come out of it.

Doug is full of lust and greed. He grabbed and stole people’s money and properties. He is manipulative – completely manipulated the whole story when he filed for our divorce, and now when talks about Swamiji…..look at the disgusting blog he maintains, where are the facts?  He creates and comes-up with own story which doesn’t make sense at all. 

1)      Did Doug share to everyone, that he had an affair while married to me?

2)      Did Doug share that he abused, lied and cheated his former in-laws?

3)      Did Doug reveal that he is anti-Hindu?

4)      Did Doug share that he forced his wife to work, to support his welfare & healthcare?

5)      Did Doug reveal to the world that he grabbed money from his wife?

6)      Did Doug reveal to the world that he believes and practices black magic? I was so freaked out with his ways that I didn’t want to stay in that house (that I also paid for)?

7)      Did Doug reveal that he was so cunning to his wife, he manipulated the courts and kicked her out of her own place?

8)      Did Doug reveal that he doesn’t know much at all about Hinduism and Vedic tradition?

9)      Did Doug reveal that he was diagnosed mentally ill in the past?
10)   Did Doug tell he is insecure even if his wife just speaks to a young boy, and constantly has the dirty suspicious mind?

11)   Has Doug ever revealed that he is the owner and writer of the “Cult” Blog? If this blog is doing a great service for the humanity, why there’s no name and identity of the owner to this blog? No, he’s not even courageous enough to do that.

Who is he to save Dharma and humanity?  First he needs to safe himself…..from all this negativity in him.  I knew for sure he would support this scandal rumor, because he did exactly same thing to me, his ex-wife.  He fabricated that scandal story through manipulation and deceit with no proof and evidence--only his convoluted allegations. Sounds familiar?