Wishing everyone a blissful Deepavali
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Nov. 2, 2010 (Bidadi)
Yesterday was outing day for me. Krishnananda, Kaviya and myself, we the LA gang went to Banglore city. Of course we followed a local devotee. The fun part is we took a public bus and of course 'auto riksha' too. It was Krishnananda first time on a auto riksha. Of course because this is her first visit to India. Lucky her, first time ever she came to India, she went to Himalayas and also got initiated into sanyas. Nice.......
Banglore city, the bazzars and shops reminded me of Bombay, in someways. I really had a good time.
Oh.....I surprised Kaiviya and Krishnanda yesterday. Actually I was surprise with my own action. Yesterday, before we hit the road, to go back to Bidadi. We stopped at a place call 'Natural Ice-Cream'. mmm.....yummy. It's more like frozen yogurt place in the US, not the ice-cream but the choices and display.
Those who know me, they know I literally live with ice-cream. There was a season, I had ice-cream for breakfast , lunch, dinner and in between snacks. My friends at work (in Sunrise LA) they can tell stories Ma (me) and ice-cream. God....I will not eat anything at work other than ice-cream. My close friends, Stan, Krishna, Malini, Selina,.....you talk to any of them, they will tell you that I will simply get excited when even I just think of ice-cream. Now.....I was completely relax, not excited, not craving...........and the best part yesterday I passed on ice-cream. I was not even aware that I passed on 'Ice-cream" till Kaviya told me "ma, I can't believe that You said no to ice-cream." When she brought to my attention, then even I was surprise. "You are right! It's not like me....wow!" I told her it could be the power of Master's initiation. These days we just eat twice a day. No snacking in between. Before each meal I have to take my bath and do Gurupuja. I had my breakfast in the morning before the trip to Banglore so before my second intake of food I have to take my bath and do puja, I will not be able to do until I get back home, so no snacking, that's all. I didn't even think further.
But honestly, it may look like simple for you to think it's normal and what's the big deal? Oh God....trust me, ice-cream, literally like an addiction. Especially already in the store and missing it, mmm......that's very unlikely. The best part is my brain didn't even think 'oh! it's ice-cream or I am missing something , .... ...! Until Kaviya brought it to my attention. Really, knowing myself, that's like 'Ice-cream dropped me' not 'I dropped the ice-cream'.
Difficult for me to express the inside feeling or engram.....dropping without my effort. Nice experience.....
Yesterday was outing day for me. Krishnananda, Kaviya and myself, we the LA gang went to Banglore city. Of course we followed a local devotee. The fun part is we took a public bus and of course 'auto riksha' too. It was Krishnananda first time on a auto riksha. Of course because this is her first visit to India. Lucky her, first time ever she came to India, she went to Himalayas and also got initiated into sanyas. Nice.......
Banglore city, the bazzars and shops reminded me of Bombay, in someways. I really had a good time.
Oh.....I surprised Kaiviya and Krishnanda yesterday. Actually I was surprise with my own action. Yesterday, before we hit the road, to go back to Bidadi. We stopped at a place call 'Natural Ice-Cream'. mmm.....yummy. It's more like frozen yogurt place in the US, not the ice-cream but the choices and display.
Those who know me, they know I literally live with ice-cream. There was a season, I had ice-cream for breakfast , lunch, dinner and in between snacks. My friends at work (in Sunrise LA) they can tell stories Ma (me) and ice-cream. God....I will not eat anything at work other than ice-cream. My close friends, Stan, Krishna, Malini, Selina,.....you talk to any of them, they will tell you that I will simply get excited when even I just think of ice-cream. Now.....I was completely relax, not excited, not craving...........and the best part yesterday I passed on ice-cream. I was not even aware that I passed on 'Ice-cream" till Kaviya told me "ma, I can't believe that You said no to ice-cream." When she brought to my attention, then even I was surprise. "You are right! It's not like me....wow!" I told her it could be the power of Master's initiation. These days we just eat twice a day. No snacking in between. Before each meal I have to take my bath and do Gurupuja. I had my breakfast in the morning before the trip to Banglore so before my second intake of food I have to take my bath and do puja, I will not be able to do until I get back home, so no snacking, that's all. I didn't even think further.
But honestly, it may look like simple for you to think it's normal and what's the big deal? Oh God....trust me, ice-cream, literally like an addiction. Especially already in the store and missing it, mmm......that's very unlikely. The best part is my brain didn't even think 'oh! it's ice-cream or I am missing something , .... ...! Until Kaviya brought it to my attention. Really, knowing myself, that's like 'Ice-cream dropped me' not 'I dropped the ice-cream'.
Difficult for me to express the inside feeling or engram.....dropping without my effort. Nice experience.....
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Oct. 31, 2010 (Bidadi)
Nithyanandam everyone. Oopps another long break from sharing on the blog. Sorry!
I guess as IA date is getting closer, my mind is fully thinking of IA, most of the time.
Swami is really busy with eN-Kalpatarus. Divine really knows how to; reach seekers. I've never come across someone with such patience and compassion.
Today again Swami remimded us to be in awareness all the time.
Ooopps again have to go. Will continue or update more.....
Nithyanandam everyone. Oopps another long break from sharing on the blog. Sorry!
I guess as IA date is getting closer, my mind is fully thinking of IA, most of the time.
Swami is really busy with eN-Kalpatarus. Divine really knows how to; reach seekers. I've never come across someone with such patience and compassion.
Today again Swami remimded us to be in awareness all the time.
Ooopps again have to go. Will continue or update more.....
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Interesting words of the Master
Oct. 27, 2010 (Bidadi)
Interesting words from Swamiji's discoourses / sharing:
1. "This time I'm not going to be crucified, I am not Jesus, I am Kalabhairava."
2. "I have deep love for all of you. I am still in this body just to be with you."
3. "We are all standing together, cosmos will stand with us. We are beautiful flowers in the cosmos."
4. "Let us disappear into courage."
5. "Let us all achieve and radiate enlightenment."
6. "Sanyas is awakening different levels of DNAs."
(will continue...have to go).
Interesting words from Swamiji's discoourses / sharing:
1. "This time I'm not going to be crucified, I am not Jesus, I am Kalabhairava."
2. "I have deep love for all of you. I am still in this body just to be with you."
3. "We are all standing together, cosmos will stand with us. We are beautiful flowers in the cosmos."
4. "Let us disappear into courage."
5. "Let us all achieve and radiate enlightenment."
6. "Sanyas is awakening different levels of DNAs."
(will continue...have to go).
Monday, October 25, 2010
Hug and hugs....and nice healing HUG!
Oct. 25., 2010 (Bidadi)
Recently Swami mentioned in His Nithyananda Sutra (morning talk), how important is mother's hug for a child.
- As Swami always mentioned, don't have to take down notes, if it's meant for you; you will remember. Which ever you don't remember, we don't have to worry about it.
- In that talk, I remember Him saying "even though a child get enough food and nutrition for 14 days but if did not get a hug from the mother.....can cause death". Did I remember it right, or heard the way I wanted to hear? :)
- Then He mentioned something like the mother's doesn't have all her 12 DNA strands awaken. Generally one, normally not even two. Then He connected to how much healing will it be a hug from a cosmic / divine mother who has all her 12 DNA strands awaken?"
- GOD......I don't if all 12 DNA strands of Swamiji is awaken. Or more like I cannot proof or I don't have any scientific or logical data for it.
- One thing I know is my experience. Not only feel the healing, when Swami gives a hug but I know people who are aware, they also feel happy for others.
For sure I can relate when He says His hug is like Divine Mother's hug. Not a single ahsramites want to take it for granted because we have received is many times.
- If we all could remember the moments of energy darshan, maybe you'll remember at least glimpses of what I am sharing. (Doesn't matter whether you are a male/ female/ old / young /devotees or ex-devotees). No one can escape from the blazing light of the Sun and cooling light of the full moon.
Recently Swami mentioned in His Nithyananda Sutra (morning talk), how important is mother's hug for a child.
- As Swami always mentioned, don't have to take down notes, if it's meant for you; you will remember. Which ever you don't remember, we don't have to worry about it.
- In that talk, I remember Him saying "even though a child get enough food and nutrition for 14 days but if did not get a hug from the mother.....can cause death". Did I remember it right, or heard the way I wanted to hear? :)
- Then He mentioned something like the mother's doesn't have all her 12 DNA strands awaken. Generally one, normally not even two. Then He connected to how much healing will it be a hug from a cosmic / divine mother who has all her 12 DNA strands awaken?"
- GOD......I don't if all 12 DNA strands of Swamiji is awaken. Or more like I cannot proof or I don't have any scientific or logical data for it.
- One thing I know is my experience. Not only feel the healing, when Swami gives a hug but I know people who are aware, they also feel happy for others.
For sure I can relate when He says His hug is like Divine Mother's hug. Not a single ahsramites want to take it for granted because we have received is many times.
- If we all could remember the moments of energy darshan, maybe you'll remember at least glimpses of what I am sharing. (Doesn't matter whether you are a male/ female/ old / young /devotees or ex-devotees). No one can escape from the blazing light of the Sun and cooling light of the full moon.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Name and identity
Oct. 22nd, 2010 (Bidadi)
Just thought will share a small story of Master's play with my identity.
When I met Swami my name was Sharmila or also known as Milla. Then on Feb. 14, 2004, I received a spiritual name Ma Ananda Praba. First NSP ever Swami did and this is the first time ever Swami started giving Spiritual Name. For me, then idea was, when divine gives.....just accept humbly. So was happy to receive this name from Swamiji. Even though one corner in my heart, I was think....god! PrabAAA, sounds so masculine. Why not like others...Usha, Shanti, Vimala :)
Of course there's not much choice there. Just accept and live with it. Just because it came from the Master, I started liking it. Or maybe even better, I simply started using it.
Then in the year 2005, I remember reading on the website; Ma Nithyananda Priya Mayi. I clearly remember thinking, "God...what a lucky person, she has her name after the Master". Then I remember Swami gave initiation in the first Nithyanandam program, year 2005 in Bidadi. Of course, I went and sat in the batch, want to apply to become an ashramite. He did some rituals and gave initiation to the group. So lucky me, He didn't ask me any question. Simply let me be in the group and gave the initiation. That time, He announced whoever wants spiritual name they have to commit to change it legally. Since I already have one, I did not apply.
The following year, early 2006 (I think) matter of couple months, Swami was on His world tour visiting US. I remember clearly it was in Sanatana Dharma Temple, LA, CA (DSP). Many were applying for spiritual name. Then a batch of people were called to stand in line to receive spiritual name. One of the LA ashramite (I was not an ashramite then) called me to stand in line too. I remember telling her, 'I already have a spiritual name'. She verified with me, "are you Ma Ananda Praba?". I said "Yes". She said "OK, then stand in line, please."
There comes my turn to get closer to Swamiji. Not knowing what is it about when I already have a spiritual name as Ma Ananda Praba. So now, I am near Swamiji. He gave me energy darshan. Then He uttered "Your name is Ma Nithyananda Praba". When I heard that, I was so happy. Unexpected, just had a thought how someone else is so lucky to have her name after the Master's name. Now He is showering it to me, without even asking. It was a pleasant surprise. I actually jumped-up and gave Him another hug. Yes, this time Swami didn't give me the hug, I gave Him :)
Then I wanted to change my name legally. So Swami suggested to have Nithyananda as the last name. So my name: Ma Nithyananda Praba, legally now my name is Praba Ma Nithyananda. Can't use Ma or Nithyananda as first the name. Almost everyone in the ashram is ma or pa and nithyananda. OK are you following....
By now I already have 3 versions of spiritual name:
Ma Ananda Praba
Ma Nithyananda Praba (legally as Praba Ma Nithyananda)
and after four years ....at the sanyas initiation when Swami gave me energy darshan He uttered
"Ma Nithya Prabananda". Again after bow down and took the kavi from His feet, He said it again "Your name is Ma Nithya Prabananda". I shook my head, confirming, yes...OK :)
So here you go, talking about Master breaking the identity.
Actually, I remember one of the LA ashramite, Sri Niranjana, before I leave to Bidadi in this visit. He said , maybe Swami should give a new name for you. After all these scandal and abusal. I also told him, 'yeah, it will be nice'. But then I thought, well....I already change it legally, I don't think that's going to happen.
The funny thing is even with Ma Nithya Prabananda - legally if I follow as described by Swamiji; my name will be the same as now, Praba Ma Nithyananda. Because I remember Him saying, if you have Nithya and Ananda, just have as Nithyananda as your last name. So Ma Nithya Prabananda legally it will be as my current version Ma Praba Nithyananda. Interesting!
Anyway, with my writing skill...., in the name of sharing, did I confuse You? Started as a small story , now has become a Longgg story :)
Just thought will share a small story of Master's play with my identity.
When I met Swami my name was Sharmila or also known as Milla. Then on Feb. 14, 2004, I received a spiritual name Ma Ananda Praba. First NSP ever Swami did and this is the first time ever Swami started giving Spiritual Name. For me, then idea was, when divine gives.....just accept humbly. So was happy to receive this name from Swamiji. Even though one corner in my heart, I was think....god! PrabAAA, sounds so masculine. Why not like others...Usha, Shanti, Vimala :)
Of course there's not much choice there. Just accept and live with it. Just because it came from the Master, I started liking it. Or maybe even better, I simply started using it.
Then in the year 2005, I remember reading on the website; Ma Nithyananda Priya Mayi. I clearly remember thinking, "God...what a lucky person, she has her name after the Master". Then I remember Swami gave initiation in the first Nithyanandam program, year 2005 in Bidadi. Of course, I went and sat in the batch, want to apply to become an ashramite. He did some rituals and gave initiation to the group. So lucky me, He didn't ask me any question. Simply let me be in the group and gave the initiation. That time, He announced whoever wants spiritual name they have to commit to change it legally. Since I already have one, I did not apply.
The following year, early 2006 (I think) matter of couple months, Swami was on His world tour visiting US. I remember clearly it was in Sanatana Dharma Temple, LA, CA (DSP). Many were applying for spiritual name. Then a batch of people were called to stand in line to receive spiritual name. One of the LA ashramite (I was not an ashramite then) called me to stand in line too. I remember telling her, 'I already have a spiritual name'. She verified with me, "are you Ma Ananda Praba?". I said "Yes". She said "OK, then stand in line, please."
There comes my turn to get closer to Swamiji. Not knowing what is it about when I already have a spiritual name as Ma Ananda Praba. So now, I am near Swamiji. He gave me energy darshan. Then He uttered "Your name is Ma Nithyananda Praba". When I heard that, I was so happy. Unexpected, just had a thought how someone else is so lucky to have her name after the Master's name. Now He is showering it to me, without even asking. It was a pleasant surprise. I actually jumped-up and gave Him another hug. Yes, this time Swami didn't give me the hug, I gave Him :)
Then I wanted to change my name legally. So Swami suggested to have Nithyananda as the last name. So my name: Ma Nithyananda Praba, legally now my name is Praba Ma Nithyananda. Can't use Ma or Nithyananda as first the name. Almost everyone in the ashram is ma or pa and nithyananda. OK are you following....
By now I already have 3 versions of spiritual name:
Ma Ananda Praba
Ma Nithyananda Praba (legally as Praba Ma Nithyananda)
and after four years ....at the sanyas initiation when Swami gave me energy darshan He uttered
"Ma Nithya Prabananda". Again after bow down and took the kavi from His feet, He said it again "Your name is Ma Nithya Prabananda". I shook my head, confirming, yes...OK :)
So here you go, talking about Master breaking the identity.
Actually, I remember one of the LA ashramite, Sri Niranjana, before I leave to Bidadi in this visit. He said , maybe Swami should give a new name for you. After all these scandal and abusal. I also told him, 'yeah, it will be nice'. But then I thought, well....I already change it legally, I don't think that's going to happen.
The funny thing is even with Ma Nithya Prabananda - legally if I follow as described by Swamiji; my name will be the same as now, Praba Ma Nithyananda. Because I remember Him saying, if you have Nithya and Ananda, just have as Nithyananda as your last name. So Ma Nithya Prabananda legally it will be as my current version Ma Praba Nithyananda. Interesting!
Anyway, with my writing skill...., in the name of sharing, did I confuse You? Started as a small story , now has become a Longgg story :)
Thursday, October 21, 2010
17 Oct 2010 eN News - The Celebration
Here's some video clips of the celebration. I happened to read the news. Actually I was feeling sleepy while reading this news.....seriously. I just had a day full of activities.
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