Oct. 31, 2010 (Bidadi)
Nithyanandam everyone. Oopps another long break from sharing on the blog. Sorry!
I guess as IA date is getting closer, my mind is fully thinking of IA, most of the time.
Swami is really busy with eN-Kalpatarus. Divine really knows how to; reach seekers. I've never come across someone with such patience and compassion.
Today again Swami remimded us to be in awareness all the time.
Ooopps again have to go. Will continue or update more.....
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Interesting words of the Master
Oct. 27, 2010 (Bidadi)
Interesting words from Swamiji's discoourses / sharing:
1. "This time I'm not going to be crucified, I am not Jesus, I am Kalabhairava."
2. "I have deep love for all of you. I am still in this body just to be with you."
3. "We are all standing together, cosmos will stand with us. We are beautiful flowers in the cosmos."
4. "Let us disappear into courage."
5. "Let us all achieve and radiate enlightenment."
6. "Sanyas is awakening different levels of DNAs."
(will continue...have to go).
Interesting words from Swamiji's discoourses / sharing:
1. "This time I'm not going to be crucified, I am not Jesus, I am Kalabhairava."
2. "I have deep love for all of you. I am still in this body just to be with you."
3. "We are all standing together, cosmos will stand with us. We are beautiful flowers in the cosmos."
4. "Let us disappear into courage."
5. "Let us all achieve and radiate enlightenment."
6. "Sanyas is awakening different levels of DNAs."
(will continue...have to go).
Monday, October 25, 2010
Hug and hugs....and nice healing HUG!
Oct. 25., 2010 (Bidadi)
Recently Swami mentioned in His Nithyananda Sutra (morning talk), how important is mother's hug for a child.
- As Swami always mentioned, don't have to take down notes, if it's meant for you; you will remember. Which ever you don't remember, we don't have to worry about it.
- In that talk, I remember Him saying "even though a child get enough food and nutrition for 14 days but if did not get a hug from the mother.....can cause death". Did I remember it right, or heard the way I wanted to hear? :)
- Then He mentioned something like the mother's doesn't have all her 12 DNA strands awaken. Generally one, normally not even two. Then He connected to how much healing will it be a hug from a cosmic / divine mother who has all her 12 DNA strands awaken?"
- GOD......I don't if all 12 DNA strands of Swamiji is awaken. Or more like I cannot proof or I don't have any scientific or logical data for it.
- One thing I know is my experience. Not only feel the healing, when Swami gives a hug but I know people who are aware, they also feel happy for others.
For sure I can relate when He says His hug is like Divine Mother's hug. Not a single ahsramites want to take it for granted because we have received is many times.
- If we all could remember the moments of energy darshan, maybe you'll remember at least glimpses of what I am sharing. (Doesn't matter whether you are a male/ female/ old / young /devotees or ex-devotees). No one can escape from the blazing light of the Sun and cooling light of the full moon.
Recently Swami mentioned in His Nithyananda Sutra (morning talk), how important is mother's hug for a child.
- As Swami always mentioned, don't have to take down notes, if it's meant for you; you will remember. Which ever you don't remember, we don't have to worry about it.
- In that talk, I remember Him saying "even though a child get enough food and nutrition for 14 days but if did not get a hug from the mother.....can cause death". Did I remember it right, or heard the way I wanted to hear? :)
- Then He mentioned something like the mother's doesn't have all her 12 DNA strands awaken. Generally one, normally not even two. Then He connected to how much healing will it be a hug from a cosmic / divine mother who has all her 12 DNA strands awaken?"
- GOD......I don't if all 12 DNA strands of Swamiji is awaken. Or more like I cannot proof or I don't have any scientific or logical data for it.
- One thing I know is my experience. Not only feel the healing, when Swami gives a hug but I know people who are aware, they also feel happy for others.
For sure I can relate when He says His hug is like Divine Mother's hug. Not a single ahsramites want to take it for granted because we have received is many times.
- If we all could remember the moments of energy darshan, maybe you'll remember at least glimpses of what I am sharing. (Doesn't matter whether you are a male/ female/ old / young /devotees or ex-devotees). No one can escape from the blazing light of the Sun and cooling light of the full moon.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Name and identity
Oct. 22nd, 2010 (Bidadi)
Just thought will share a small story of Master's play with my identity.
When I met Swami my name was Sharmila or also known as Milla. Then on Feb. 14, 2004, I received a spiritual name Ma Ananda Praba. First NSP ever Swami did and this is the first time ever Swami started giving Spiritual Name. For me, then idea was, when divine gives.....just accept humbly. So was happy to receive this name from Swamiji. Even though one corner in my heart, I was think....god! PrabAAA, sounds so masculine. Why not like others...Usha, Shanti, Vimala :)
Of course there's not much choice there. Just accept and live with it. Just because it came from the Master, I started liking it. Or maybe even better, I simply started using it.
Then in the year 2005, I remember reading on the website; Ma Nithyananda Priya Mayi. I clearly remember thinking, "God...what a lucky person, she has her name after the Master". Then I remember Swami gave initiation in the first Nithyanandam program, year 2005 in Bidadi. Of course, I went and sat in the batch, want to apply to become an ashramite. He did some rituals and gave initiation to the group. So lucky me, He didn't ask me any question. Simply let me be in the group and gave the initiation. That time, He announced whoever wants spiritual name they have to commit to change it legally. Since I already have one, I did not apply.
The following year, early 2006 (I think) matter of couple months, Swami was on His world tour visiting US. I remember clearly it was in Sanatana Dharma Temple, LA, CA (DSP). Many were applying for spiritual name. Then a batch of people were called to stand in line to receive spiritual name. One of the LA ashramite (I was not an ashramite then) called me to stand in line too. I remember telling her, 'I already have a spiritual name'. She verified with me, "are you Ma Ananda Praba?". I said "Yes". She said "OK, then stand in line, please."
There comes my turn to get closer to Swamiji. Not knowing what is it about when I already have a spiritual name as Ma Ananda Praba. So now, I am near Swamiji. He gave me energy darshan. Then He uttered "Your name is Ma Nithyananda Praba". When I heard that, I was so happy. Unexpected, just had a thought how someone else is so lucky to have her name after the Master's name. Now He is showering it to me, without even asking. It was a pleasant surprise. I actually jumped-up and gave Him another hug. Yes, this time Swami didn't give me the hug, I gave Him :)
Then I wanted to change my name legally. So Swami suggested to have Nithyananda as the last name. So my name: Ma Nithyananda Praba, legally now my name is Praba Ma Nithyananda. Can't use Ma or Nithyananda as first the name. Almost everyone in the ashram is ma or pa and nithyananda. OK are you following....
By now I already have 3 versions of spiritual name:
Ma Ananda Praba
Ma Nithyananda Praba (legally as Praba Ma Nithyananda)
and after four years ....at the sanyas initiation when Swami gave me energy darshan He uttered
"Ma Nithya Prabananda". Again after bow down and took the kavi from His feet, He said it again "Your name is Ma Nithya Prabananda". I shook my head, confirming, yes...OK :)
So here you go, talking about Master breaking the identity.
Actually, I remember one of the LA ashramite, Sri Niranjana, before I leave to Bidadi in this visit. He said , maybe Swami should give a new name for you. After all these scandal and abusal. I also told him, 'yeah, it will be nice'. But then I thought, well....I already change it legally, I don't think that's going to happen.
The funny thing is even with Ma Nithya Prabananda - legally if I follow as described by Swamiji; my name will be the same as now, Praba Ma Nithyananda. Because I remember Him saying, if you have Nithya and Ananda, just have as Nithyananda as your last name. So Ma Nithya Prabananda legally it will be as my current version Ma Praba Nithyananda. Interesting!
Anyway, with my writing skill...., in the name of sharing, did I confuse You? Started as a small story , now has become a Longgg story :)
Just thought will share a small story of Master's play with my identity.
When I met Swami my name was Sharmila or also known as Milla. Then on Feb. 14, 2004, I received a spiritual name Ma Ananda Praba. First NSP ever Swami did and this is the first time ever Swami started giving Spiritual Name. For me, then idea was, when divine gives.....just accept humbly. So was happy to receive this name from Swamiji. Even though one corner in my heart, I was think....god! PrabAAA, sounds so masculine. Why not like others...Usha, Shanti, Vimala :)
Of course there's not much choice there. Just accept and live with it. Just because it came from the Master, I started liking it. Or maybe even better, I simply started using it.
Then in the year 2005, I remember reading on the website; Ma Nithyananda Priya Mayi. I clearly remember thinking, "God...what a lucky person, she has her name after the Master". Then I remember Swami gave initiation in the first Nithyanandam program, year 2005 in Bidadi. Of course, I went and sat in the batch, want to apply to become an ashramite. He did some rituals and gave initiation to the group. So lucky me, He didn't ask me any question. Simply let me be in the group and gave the initiation. That time, He announced whoever wants spiritual name they have to commit to change it legally. Since I already have one, I did not apply.
The following year, early 2006 (I think) matter of couple months, Swami was on His world tour visiting US. I remember clearly it was in Sanatana Dharma Temple, LA, CA (DSP). Many were applying for spiritual name. Then a batch of people were called to stand in line to receive spiritual name. One of the LA ashramite (I was not an ashramite then) called me to stand in line too. I remember telling her, 'I already have a spiritual name'. She verified with me, "are you Ma Ananda Praba?". I said "Yes". She said "OK, then stand in line, please."
There comes my turn to get closer to Swamiji. Not knowing what is it about when I already have a spiritual name as Ma Ananda Praba. So now, I am near Swamiji. He gave me energy darshan. Then He uttered "Your name is Ma Nithyananda Praba". When I heard that, I was so happy. Unexpected, just had a thought how someone else is so lucky to have her name after the Master's name. Now He is showering it to me, without even asking. It was a pleasant surprise. I actually jumped-up and gave Him another hug. Yes, this time Swami didn't give me the hug, I gave Him :)
Then I wanted to change my name legally. So Swami suggested to have Nithyananda as the last name. So my name: Ma Nithyananda Praba, legally now my name is Praba Ma Nithyananda. Can't use Ma or Nithyananda as first the name. Almost everyone in the ashram is ma or pa and nithyananda. OK are you following....
By now I already have 3 versions of spiritual name:
Ma Ananda Praba
Ma Nithyananda Praba (legally as Praba Ma Nithyananda)
and after four years ....at the sanyas initiation when Swami gave me energy darshan He uttered
"Ma Nithya Prabananda". Again after bow down and took the kavi from His feet, He said it again "Your name is Ma Nithya Prabananda". I shook my head, confirming, yes...OK :)
So here you go, talking about Master breaking the identity.
Actually, I remember one of the LA ashramite, Sri Niranjana, before I leave to Bidadi in this visit. He said , maybe Swami should give a new name for you. After all these scandal and abusal. I also told him, 'yeah, it will be nice'. But then I thought, well....I already change it legally, I don't think that's going to happen.
The funny thing is even with Ma Nithya Prabananda - legally if I follow as described by Swamiji; my name will be the same as now, Praba Ma Nithyananda. Because I remember Him saying, if you have Nithya and Ananda, just have as Nithyananda as your last name. So Ma Nithya Prabananda legally it will be as my current version Ma Praba Nithyananda. Interesting!
Anyway, with my writing skill...., in the name of sharing, did I confuse You? Started as a small story , now has become a Longgg story :)
Thursday, October 21, 2010
17 Oct 2010 eN News - The Celebration
Here's some video clips of the celebration. I happened to read the news. Actually I was feeling sleepy while reading this news.....seriously. I just had a day full of activities.
Initiated into probationary sanyas (Yellow Kavi)
Around 7:30pm on Oct. 17th, 2010 (the last day of Navaratri celebration) received sanyas initiation from Paramahamsa Nithyananda.
The whole event became extra fun and special with Swamiji's spontaneity. Before the initiation, at Vaidhya Sarovar, Prana Maharaj and Bhakta Swami reminded me "after this, you will receive initiation". (I wasn't exactly sure what initiation Swami's going to give me). I guessed could be sanyas because that's one thing I expressed to Him in the year of 2007, when He gave first sanyas initiation in Duarte ashram for other LA ashramites.
You know....with Swami, we can't really predict. When we are very sure, He will flip it to something else. Anyway, so from Vaidhya Sarovar, I left early got ready and went to chit sabha on time. Just before the ceremony, Bhakta Swami came and called Gnanamaya (aka Barathi in LA) and myself to go to the stage from the back end. In the front the stage curtain was still closed..
On the stage, there were only 3 of us to be initiated. I was actually very surprise. It was Gnanamaya, myself, and another Indian male ashramite. So the curtain was opened, with the 3 of us on the stage. It was announced "Probation sanyas will be given to 3 ashramites". My name was called first. Any I was sitting very close to Swami's feet. First Swami gave the Gayatri Initiation and put the sacred thread for me, then He gave me energy darshan with blessings. Finally I bow down and took the Yellow kavi from His feet. After initiated the other 2 ashramites, He went into this 'givers' mood. He asked Prana Maharaj bring out more kavis. Then He was simply calling people's name and gave them upgraded sanyas. From yellow to orange. Also from orange to full kavi. Then He opened to the devotees. Who wants sanyas? Not all from the devotees list who wanted got sanyas, but many did. I could just go on and on, talk about the event.
It was Too Much FUN!
In the Living Enlightenment book, there's a topic Swami talks about Sanyas, for those who are curious about the significance of Sanyas initiation.
The whole event became extra fun and special with Swamiji's spontaneity. Before the initiation, at Vaidhya Sarovar, Prana Maharaj and Bhakta Swami reminded me "after this, you will receive initiation". (I wasn't exactly sure what initiation Swami's going to give me). I guessed could be sanyas because that's one thing I expressed to Him in the year of 2007, when He gave first sanyas initiation in Duarte ashram for other LA ashramites.
You know....with Swami, we can't really predict. When we are very sure, He will flip it to something else. Anyway, so from Vaidhya Sarovar, I left early got ready and went to chit sabha on time. Just before the ceremony, Bhakta Swami came and called Gnanamaya (aka Barathi in LA) and myself to go to the stage from the back end. In the front the stage curtain was still closed..
In the above video link at minute 11:35 - You can see me on the stage, waiting to get the initiation.
On the stage, there were only 3 of us to be initiated. I was actually very surprise. It was Gnanamaya, myself, and another Indian male ashramite. So the curtain was opened, with the 3 of us on the stage. It was announced "Probation sanyas will be given to 3 ashramites". My name was called first. Any I was sitting very close to Swami's feet. First Swami gave the Gayatri Initiation and put the sacred thread for me, then He gave me energy darshan with blessings. Finally I bow down and took the Yellow kavi from His feet. After initiated the other 2 ashramites, He went into this 'givers' mood. He asked Prana Maharaj bring out more kavis. Then He was simply calling people's name and gave them upgraded sanyas. From yellow to orange. Also from orange to full kavi. Then He opened to the devotees. Who wants sanyas? Not all from the devotees list who wanted got sanyas, but many did. I could just go on and on, talk about the event.
It was Too Much FUN!
In the Living Enlightenment book, there's a topic Swami talks about Sanyas, for those who are curious about the significance of Sanyas initiation.
Celebrations part 2 :)
Oct. 20, 2010 (Bidadi)
God....I forgot that I need to update this blog. Anyway, by now you must have heard what happened on the 17th.
Continuing from where I left. So the morning session ended with a beautiful energy darshan.When it was my turn for darshan, I received the darshan first then I bow down to touch swami's feet. By then someone else already getting darshan on His right side. After namaskar, I got-up and started walking away, just like two steps away, Swami called "Hey!" I turned and looked at Him, He said "I will give you initiation today". I just smiled and walked away. Swami had a big smile too.
Then around 3:00pm, there was Holli celebration in the temple (at the entrance of the temple). Swami took orange powder and put some color on Bhakta Swami's face. Then gave the whole tray to him. There goes colorful party. Interesting to witness, nobody got upset. Even though some giving instruction not to put color on them, of course everyone was in a playful mood. So no instruction was obeyed. The interesting part is nobody got upset. Nice to see....the whole crowd participated, laughing and running.
The interesting thing is many of them are living on 'aprigraha' or simplicity. With only two sets of sarees and maybe one or two set of salwar Kameez, seeing all this color on their saree.....made my to be a little concern. With that in mind, and especially for me, I was wearing a brand new ashram saree.....no way I got close to the 'holli crowd'. I stayed in the temple and watched the fun from there. Once in a while when someone run into the temple, I manage to hide myself in the store room :) Uuuhh! manage safe to my saree from the holli colorful powder.
Then from the temple, took all the Navratri deities in a procession to Vaidhya Sarovar (Energized large pond), Immersed the deities in a smaller pond, next to Vaidhya Saravor. Then went to Vaidhya Sarovor and Swami sat on a very beautifully decorated float. The rest when in the pond. Again since I just had my bath and wearing a new saree, I stayed dry and watched the crowd so blissfully singing and dancing in the pond. Nice, fun and loud music was playing. Everybody was having so much fun. It was amazing to witness this. Really, I remember thinking, god.....how blessed are these people, very happy!
Ha! now Swami saw me standing.......from the pond sitting on the float, He waved at me, to come in and take a dip in the pond. OK, now I have to join. Here you go.....went and joined the blissful crowd.
So much fun!
God....I forgot that I need to update this blog. Anyway, by now you must have heard what happened on the 17th.
Continuing from where I left. So the morning session ended with a beautiful energy darshan.When it was my turn for darshan, I received the darshan first then I bow down to touch swami's feet. By then someone else already getting darshan on His right side. After namaskar, I got-up and started walking away, just like two steps away, Swami called "Hey!" I turned and looked at Him, He said "I will give you initiation today". I just smiled and walked away. Swami had a big smile too.
Then around 3:00pm, there was Holli celebration in the temple (at the entrance of the temple). Swami took orange powder and put some color on Bhakta Swami's face. Then gave the whole tray to him. There goes colorful party. Interesting to witness, nobody got upset. Even though some giving instruction not to put color on them, of course everyone was in a playful mood. So no instruction was obeyed. The interesting part is nobody got upset. Nice to see....the whole crowd participated, laughing and running.
The interesting thing is many of them are living on 'aprigraha' or simplicity. With only two sets of sarees and maybe one or two set of salwar Kameez, seeing all this color on their saree.....made my to be a little concern. With that in mind, and especially for me, I was wearing a brand new ashram saree.....no way I got close to the 'holli crowd'. I stayed in the temple and watched the fun from there. Once in a while when someone run into the temple, I manage to hide myself in the store room :) Uuuhh! manage safe to my saree from the holli colorful powder.
Then from the temple, took all the Navratri deities in a procession to Vaidhya Sarovar (Energized large pond), Immersed the deities in a smaller pond, next to Vaidhya Saravor. Then went to Vaidhya Sarovor and Swami sat on a very beautifully decorated float. The rest when in the pond. Again since I just had my bath and wearing a new saree, I stayed dry and watched the crowd so blissfully singing and dancing in the pond. Nice, fun and loud music was playing. Everybody was having so much fun. It was amazing to witness this. Really, I remember thinking, god.....how blessed are these people, very happy!
Ha! now Swami saw me standing.......from the pond sitting on the float, He waved at me, to come in and take a dip in the pond. OK, now I have to join. Here you go.....went and joined the blissful crowd.
So much fun!
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